What a week...

It's really late but I am determined to get better at posting this...

The past few days were incredible. Probably one of the best weekends I have had in a really long time. I feel like I'm back on the right track mentally, physically, emotionally, everything. I lost my focus for a while and didn't even realize it. I am reminded of more and more things I am grateful for every day and just feel...right.

Now...recently...like the past day or so...I feel like I had a revelation. I remembered when I moved here I told myself "I am moving to California to succeed in the career choice I know is meant for me. I am going to work, be married to my work, give 120% to it. No need to think about or focus on relationships, or even going out and "living the LA life". I LOVE living here, where I do, with the friends and places close to me. I can have just as much fun staying in my world as I could going out in Hollywood or wherever is "hoppin" that night. I don't have to get all extra dressed up and wear uncomfortable shoes. The atmosphere in the places I choose to go to are the ones I love and kinda remind of back home. Getting caught up in the lifestyle down here isn't really what I have to do. I can do the occasional big night out, but overall, I can live a simple life and keep my focus on my job, to keep moving up. To keep learning more and more and be the best at what I am doing.
So, that being said. (Long winded...I know) I kinda decided to be a little more selfish than I was before. I like to be by myself, and I get to do that a lot more in my new house. I come home from work, work out, hang out a bit with the Jodster, and then I'm alone. I love that too. The thought popped into my head that I should make some rings that are all based around the word ME and wear them on my ring finger. I can be married to me. I can be in a committed relationship with myself. I can actually fulfill everything I need to be happy without having a boyfriend. I mean, I won't be opposed to a date if a guy asked me out. (well...depending on the guy anyway). I'm not closing off my friends, or anything else that could come into my life. I am open to whatever awesomeness that wants to come in my life. But the past month has been a lot of realizing things for me and how I want to live my life so I am happy. ME. It all depends on ME. So that's how it's gonna roll...and damn...I feel great about it. I feel like I am kinda on a high...super weird but super rad.

This may or may not have the 10 things I am grateful for, but there really are a bunch of specific things I am grateful for that happened since my last blog. Way more than 10. I think in a way...how I was describing little pieces of my life and how I feel and all that...the point got out there. It's like...so many things just keep happening, all little yet huge...and yeah. It's pretty awesome. I thought about most of them when I wrote this, and I know more things are going to keep happening. I will have plenty to talk about...perhaps not in specifics, but me having a lot to talk about shouldn't be a surprise.
It is very late though, and I have a motivating week ahead.

Good night and happy dreams
xoxo.