So here it is. We'll see how this one ends up.
The things I am grateful for still are similar to what they were when I started this blog, a year ago. Funny to think I have been living here for over a year now. And to think of where I am, what I am doing, and the things that have come into my life (and left for that matter)...it's amazing.
Honestly, first and foremost, I am grateful for myself. That might sound slightly egotistical, but not really. I am grateful that I found the career that makes me the happiest, and I worked and trusted it would happen for me. I went through great depression, having no money, no life, ups and downs, fear of failure, highs of hope, a roller coaster of everything for months. I didn't give up, even though I was close. I got the job I knew I was going to get, and every day I learn more and more and love what I do more and more. Not a single day goes by that I leave work feeling bad, stressed out or upset about my choice. The past week of feeling abnormally down, the only time I actually felt normal was when I was at my job. It's seriously one of the BEST things that has ever come into my life. I couldn't be more grateful for the position I have, the boss, the coworkers, the connections, the friends, everything that has come along through this job. Feeling the days get better and better just keeps happening, and I know it is just going to be a trend. Every day there...gets better and better.
(*In addition to the job, I have networked myself out as a babysitter and will start to fulfill that piece of me that has been missing...the children factor. I love kids too much to not have some interaction with them. I get to start babysitting very very soon and I am very very very excited about it!*)
Now, to go along with the job, there are so many people I am grateful for, as I could not have gotten there without them. I could have failed, or given up, but these people kept me going. My mother, without her love, her support, her faith in me, I wouldn't have been strong enough to make it. My brother Josh, his care and brotherly support. I couldn't have imagined my brother would have such a part of my life down here being so far away, but he has shown me a lot of strength with his own life and kept me pushing for positivity for the both of us. As well as his support for me achieving my dreams...means so much.
I have so many friends down here that made my life so much more happier than I could have imagined. My old roommates (who, yes, I miss very much) - Reece, Katt, Jeff, Chelsea, Ben & Kameron...those friends made my home down here the best place I could be. I felt safe, happy, welcome...I was surrounding by genuine care mixed with family sarcasm. Being that my family is very sarcastic, it was the atmosphere that definitely helped my homesickness disappear. The extended group of friends, all the clan that used to gather at our house or Shawn & Patrick's house....those people made memories that I won't ever forget. (Thanks to a multitude of pictures being taken at almost every hang out.)
Now...moving out of that house pulled me out of the consistent routine I had in my life. The happy chaos of the house with the dogs and never being alone, that is something I will miss. I already miss it. The new peaceful atmosphere of my new house is something to get used to, and it's slowly but surely progressing into the exact thing I need. I am learning another new lesson (which I found out today, I make the lessons appear) and I am excited to experience and balance out my life in this new place. I get to live with the JoDee...who I have been grateful for in many of my blogs. She is one thing that will always be on my list of things I am grateful for. The most genuine, kind-hearted and wonderful friend anyone could ask for, and every day I am reminded of the reasons I am grateful for her being in my life. How awesome is it that we get to be roomies finally!?!? I knew when I came to visit her two summers ago that I would live in this room, in this house, and be her roommate. I knew it. As we get settled into this new experience of being roomies, getting a balance to our lives, with her love life..my whatever-it-is "love" life...our friends, our exercise, our happiness...life just gets better and better.
Now, after going home around Labor Day, I realized a couple things.
One: The friends I have back home are some of the best in the world, and I will forever be grateful and happy that we are friends. Even if contact is few and far between...we will always be friends. Traci Jean (my twin), RaeAnne (RaeRae), Erin (My RinnyRoo), Erica (my who-knows-maybe-one-day-be-my-SIL), my LaBrisha (Bri), Jina (Walk even though it's Copstead now), Bradley (oh my dear Bradley <3), Lacey (I'll take care of the Pilot), Tara Anne (my cousin who's like a sister), and all of my dear friends at KXLY...I got to spend at least a little time with you, and I am seriously so glad and grateful I did.
Two: I might have 50+ friends back home that I care about and want to see, but there are a couple handfuls of friends that I can't go without seeing. I made an extreme effort to see everyone I possibly could while I was home for 6 days, and I got to see almost all of them. I am so happy I got to see and spend time with the few that I did...and believe you me...I couldn't live without them. I am very sad I didn't see everyone, but what can you do? I hope they know that I love them just as much as I did 5 years ago...and always will. Hopefully next time I am home we can make something happen.
To round up this blog, as it is late and I am trying to get on a schedule of going to bed early in the hopes of waking up early to get my work-out on...I am grateful for so many things in my life, as always. I am grateful for the new friends I have made here, the few lessons I unwillingly taught myself, the strength I am still learning with some situations, my sweet car that I love always and forever, my faith and knowledge that my career is growing and the dreams I had for my career WILL come true, my health, my energy, my happiness, my everything. Life as I know...consistently gets better. Even with downer days, I know they will pass. I know that even while they are present, the greatness is still working for me. Being grateful and appreciative of everything in my life works for me. Going to the Agape International Spiritual Center and hearing Rev. Michael Bernard Beckwith speak is seriously something that my soul tells me I need to do. That is one more thing I am so grateful for...living here allows me to attend the services and feel the energy and be rejuvenated back to my old self...words don't even express what the Rev. does for me.
Last note - as I cannot go a day without thinking of her - my darling Emma Grace. I love that girl more than anything else and just looking at a photo or video of her makes my energy shift into happiness...even when I miss her greatly. She is such a ray of sunshine and I am so blessed to have her as my niece. I watch BeenerKeKe on youtube just to have the chuckle of knowing she is addicted to watching him.
Alrighty, this blog ended up longer than I thought, but not as long as it could have been. Here is to a night of growing and getting back on track. Here is to a night of inconsistently being consistent. Good night and happy dreams.
xoxo
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