Well...it's almost surprising to look back to see when I first started this blog and realize that it's been almost a full month. Granted, in that full month I have sent out umpteen million resumes and called who-knows-how many people about jobs, and I think, finally, I have a great chance at getting a great job at a great company. I don't know more than it's a great fit for me and I believe I will get it. ;)
I have also had a lot of time to really think about things down here. I am so happy that I FINALLY made the leap to get here, and I am here!!! I have been wanting to move here for almost a frickin decade...and roadblocks and detours tried to keep me away but I made it. And guess what? I am going to MAKE IT. I am going to achieve my dreams down here. I am going to have a career that I love (which a lot of people these days can't say)...and I plan on working my ass off to get there. Not only will I get there, I will get there with integrity & respect. I will make enough money to live happily and comfortably, I will be able to support myself (which leaves no need for a man haha), and be respected in the music industry for the work I do. Yes. It will happen. I see it happening and me being at the top in my 5 year plan. I see happiness, success, enjoyment, living life to the fullest, along with hard work and dedication.
I also am reminded every day that I am down here of all the love and support I have. From the close family that I love and miss so much to the amazing lifelong friends I have back home to the new great friends I am making down here. The love and support I get each and every day from my *loves* here and back home are just amazing. I know they believe in me because they know I will make it. And knowing that...well...it's just awesome. Wanna know how I know I'm awesome? Cuz people believe in me! Haha wow...okay...
Getting settled...making new friends...experiencing life and making REAL friends. I am getting thrown back into the game of getting to know new people on a real friendship level, which sounds a little odd coming from me I know. Haha. I am all about meeting new people and making new friends, but down here, I only moved here with one friend that I knew already on a REAL level. Then the roommates became real friends, and their friends are slowly turning into real friends. Not the friends that you see every once in a while or say "Hey we need to get together." Actual friends. The kind that we will hang out. And what's amazing to add to it, once I get this killer job/career going, I can actually have time and money to hang out with my friends. As opposed to work 7 days a week and never being able to hang out with anyone except my family. Talk about a lifestyle change. Haha. Okay I am a dork.
Another thing that has come into my thoughts quite often lately is the fact that being single is quite awesome. Granted...there are *moments* that I really wish I had someone to snuggle and cuddle with and spend time with..but overall....damn why put any extra energy or time or thought into someone else when I have myself and my career to put first and make my priority? It might be a little selfish, but I gotta get where I wanna be before I can let someone else share my life like that. I wouldn't be opposed to having a non-committed friendship/relationship with someone, but no stress...no drama...no real expectations or let-downs. And really... I don't even really want that. It'd be nice, at times, but it's so easy to get caught up in someone else. With the sweet talk, smooth moves, and comfort that comes with "relations"....well...it's too easy. I want to be caught up in my friends and my life. Haha. Yeah yeah yeah...I'm a selfish phay-hole but hell...think of where I will be in a few years cuz I decided to be selfish. Livin' the effin life and enjoying every minute of it. I am 99.99999999% sure that when "that" guy comes into my life, I will know it in some way. And then I can go from there.
This is again, a different setup for my blog. It's not a list, I don't fit into a mold. (ha) It's what it is though. And they are my reflections...and I am surely absolutely grateful for my family, friends, internship, house, roomies, life, weather, car, the money (income), sunshine, MUSIC, good times, shows, laughs, good food, healthy living, energetic days, amazing nights, just about every darn thing in my life I am grateful for.
Yup. Life is good. Enjoy it.
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